This seems to be a time of change and transformation in my life, and much of the time I feel uncomfortable. Uncertain in the new commitments I’ve made to grow beyond my comfort zone. Holding my ground in the face of subtle and not-so-subtle invitations to stay the same. At times, my new behaviors unsettle those in my closest relationships, so I am learning to stay grounded in the face of their anxiety.
In the past, when confronted with change and pushback, my impulse was to run away and hide, to avoid stepping into whatever was arriving next. That’s the earlier version of me. She no longer runs the show. Sometimes it is freaking scary to stand my ground and stay present to the newness. The more I practice, the stronger I feel. It’s a steady, moment-to-moment awareness.
I suspect that much of my impetus toward change is related to integrating my 100-day silent meditation retreat. The quiet confidence that grew during retreat has continued to guide me in a gentle, determined manner. One big decision has been my recommitment to nurture my personal writing and honor my desire to bring forth more writing for publication.
I’m celebrating that I’ve decided to work with a writing mentor, beginning in September 2025! I’ve had an emerging manuscript for at least two years, but I’ve had difficulty making my writing a priority. I love nurturing other writers and supporting the evolution of their words. But turning attention to me and my writing? Seems like there’s always something more important that needs to be done.
A Catalyst for Creative Commitment
My body finally felt uncomfortable enough that I had to acknowledge my strong desire to grow my written words. I dithered for at least three months about how to proceed. Should I attend a retreat? Should I hire an editor? Should I take a month off and do nothing but write? I know I work best under the guidance of someone further along the path, and still I dithered.
Finally, a wise friend suggested, “Why don’t you request a meeting with the person you want to work with? You’ll know whether it’s a good fit after that call.” Talk about brilliant – and the solution was so simple. I made that call, felt great about our brief connection, and decided that this is my new mentor. No more dithering! Energy is now released from the place of indecision.
My new affirmation: I will focus on my own writing while I continue to support others.
Our formal mentorship agreement begins in September 2025. I intend to share with you what I’m learning from the mentorship process, and what I’m learning from investing in my creative self. From making a financial commitment to develop my writing further, even when I don’t know exactly what I’m trying to say or where the writing is going.
My first assignment is to begin creating my Story Purpose for my emerging manuscript, which I’ve called: Beyond Words and Back Again.
Writing Through Joy and Hardship
I’ve learned from previous experience that the Story Purpose changes as the manuscript evolves; purpose grows and deepens with the content and an awareness of the intended audience. At this early time in my writing process, creating Story Purpose reminds me of writing about my Big Why – the reasons why I’m choosing to write – something I learned from a previous mentor as I was writing The Chocolate Pilgrim. Reading over my very messy first draft, I am struck by how it’s full of the joy and connection I feel when I’m out in natural surroundings.
Sharing my joy is a big part of why I write what I write – and this was unconscious until I started pulling together my purpose. I also love writing, and some of what I’ve put into words on paper is related to my relationship with writing, what it means to be a writer and how I’ve been changed by my commitment to writing.
At the same time, I am sharing some difficulties I’ve experienced as a way of connecting with others who are going through similar challenges. Specifically, about living with a partner who has a chronic illness. I have been writing about the ways I bring in Buddhist teachings to these life challenges, and how I’ve been able to arrive at some form of acceptance, contentment and peace.
Writing Tips for Creating a Manuscript
- Find a writing buddy, where you share your goals for the week or month; connect with each other at least once a month to share your progress, some of your writing, and your next steps. You can also post in Marie’s Writing Oasis on Facebook. If you’re not already a member, sign up here.
- Take time to celebrate – there is always something to celebrate – all the steps you are taking to achieve your larger goal. Celebrate here, or with your trusted circle.
- Set up writing times in your calendar and SHOW UP! If you find it helpful, set up a Zoom call where other writers in your circle will show up and write with you. The intention is to spend time writing together, not necessarily talking and sharing.
Use timed writing practice to keep the pen moving. You can write a lot in just 3 minutes.
